Loneliness

yawnz woke up damn early today. woke up at 6.50am to send my parents off at the airport. had bk breakfast there first heh. took 36 home myself after tat and reached at around 9.30. damn tired wanted to slp but didnt sleep much haha. and i felt like vomitting after tat mayb cos i didnt haf enuff slp haha.

went to redhill delta hockey pitch after tat. png saw me at redhill haha. i didnt start the game but nvm i am not tat concerned about hockey anyway cos no matter wad i will still haf more feelings for chs scouts. haha dunno y also. mayb cos i dun tok much at hockey or wad. anyway i played the whole of 2nd half and i tot i played badly. mayb cos i didnt touch the stick for like 1 month alr haha.
we were down 1-0 at half time and they were kaobeiin all the while lar. anyway we were playin wif the seniors today. den at 2nd half i got to play and the first contribution i made to the game was to trip someone. felt quite bad cos my whole stick was like between his leg and he tripped haha.

went to bishan scouts hq after tat to settle my project. can u believe it. 1 month alr and tat guy still haven pass me. but he say i am nearin to passin -_-''.
anyway was tokin to him about ASPIRE. was askin him whether my 3 bros can pass not cos it's their last chance. den he didnt tell me directly and asked me whether i think they shld pass -_-''. hmm hopefully they can pass lar. i dun care so much abt myself though cos i got 1 more chance haha.
he was tellin me tat my performance quite inconsistent. sometimes i am okie sometimes i am bad. when i am bad i am "very jialat" according to him haha. hmm nvm i noe i wun pass cos i didnt try my best. the nxt time i go it will be a different situation. i promise myself. even if i dun pass the nxt time i go i will make sure i put in my best.

haiz finally experienced loneliness today~. was at j8 all alone thinkin about how am i goin to settle my dinner. in the end had mac for dinner and i took a taxi home (eatin my dinner on the taxi haha). and when i reached home it was damn quiet and damn dark. haiz. nvm luckily i still haf frens to tok to haha =).

christmas eve tomolo. christmas the day after tomolo. shall watch love actually tonight haha.

i am lonely~