End of a journey. Start of a new one.

hmm came home today and received this letter from scouts. haha not tat i was expecting anything or wad. but hmm...juz felt tat i could haf done better. and the thought of the girl passing makes me kind of bushuang. not tat i am jealous...or tat this is some kind of sexual discrimination... but underserving people shldnt pass at all. cant imagine man in 9 months time she will appear on the newspaper saying "The 3rd Female PSA in Singapore".

now i juz hope tat png pengsiang weepin will pass. efforts have been put in and they deserve the pass. juz hope tat the blind pple in the hq can recognise tat.

it's the end of one of my attempts in PSA. goin to embark on a new one. this shall be a more meaningful one. no more regrets.

sometimes it is really not the amount of effort you put in tat matters. no matter how hard you try...no matter what you have been doin...some things juz wun turn up the way tat u want it to be. kind of sad isnt it? life is like tat. luck, opportunities and external factors all play a part in ur success.

when will my efforts be recognised? sometimes it's better for me to gif up den for me to go on. the higher the expectations the great the disappointment when u fail. tat's y i nv like to expect success for things tat are uncertain.

lack of confidence?maybe. but i dun wan to be too disappointed when i fail. shall not be disappointed too much anymore.