hmm..long time nv update already. exactly one week already. wanted to blog a few days ago but everytime when i started typin i decide not to do so cos i dun really know what to type. mayb i dun even noe wad i want or wad i am thinkin about.

i think i really need to go for scouts. get away from my present environment. at least i wun be thinkin about anything related to my present life for tat couple of hours. it's juz a few hours yet i think i will feel better after tat. at least let me stop thinkin about wad is happenin around me for tat little while. i will feel better and mayb i will haf a clearer idea of wad do do and wad do i want.
which is why i am still doin my work now.

i think life is quite sad. sometimes no matter how hard u try how much efforts u put in...in the end the outcome is decided by some other parties. ever tried tat? no matter how much u put in u wun haf any idea what the outcome wld be...cos ultimately the outcome is not determined by ur efforts but by some other factors.

nope i am not feeling sad now. more like i am feelin lost. mayb it's juz some temporary feeling tat i haf. hope it will be gone soon.

haha i think i am talkin crap now. muz be my lack of slp. shall go slp now if not i wun be my usual self tomolo. haha.