Thoughts.

spent my whole day with scout bros today. ha i think most of the saturdays in my holidays are going to be spent with them. nice feeling to be with them can always laugh and joke around. somehow there's a sense of belonging whenever i step into chinese high and into the training shed where all that training is conducted. can feel the feeling of a big family there and i know that there will always be people around there to welcome me back. i cant really say the same for vjc...which explains my anti-social behaviour over there ha.
and it's great to be playing soccer again, though not for a very long time. still it feels good to be scoring a goal during the game ha.

went over to scout hq today to wait for leekwang to finish his aspire briefing. seems like the 9 of us always stick together when it comes to scout activities. even though not all of us will be around, we can always feel the support around. and i don't mind helping out in scout activities even though i don't get any points through the assistance. in fact many of the activities i did didnt reflect on the cca record. did them merely for the fun and passion i guess. cca record isnt very reflective of what i have done and gained through these 2 years. but i think it's the process that counts. i don't need to get a good grade and end up joining clubs and societies that i dislike.

was told that i was close to passing my aspire and getting my PSA. had mixed feelings when i heard that. of course i was quite happy. i think it helped my regained some confidence. didnt feel right whenever i saw those people at hq..had the sense of inferiority. but it's gone now i think. at least there was some recognition towards my skills. and i felt quite wasted too. if i had done my first aid etcetc better i could have been one of those at istana.

the world judges u not on how near u were towards the award, but on whether u have achieved it or not. it's a cruel reality. i can tell the whole world i was close to getting my PSA, but people will say "did you get it in the end?". no. that's how the society rates an individual and it applies to everything.
ha but it's all over now. i enjoyed the process.

good luck to lee kwang for his coming aspire. u carry the hopes of the 8 of us ha. but i am sure u can do well in the camp ;)

going off to hong kong from the 9th to the 15th.