Pre-ASPIRE Syndrome

haha long time nv blog already...wondering how many people are still reading my blog nowadays.

anyway it's the school holidays now...the beginning of a long holiday with many things to be done. have been rather busy wif the orienteering instructor course that i have signed up...and coming up nxt the big event would be ASPIRE.

think i am suffering frm the Pre-ASPIRE syndrome. feeling rather uneasy now with all the memories of the previous camp still vivid in my mind. it's not that i am afraid of going thru all the shit again...it's the failure tat i am afraid off. i still remember before going for the last camp i was like filled with confidence...but nowadays i haf that inferior kind of feeling. it's like thinking that the testers have the look-down-on-you kind of expression. yup so kind of dread goin for the camp. the idea of goin for it juz kind of give me the sian mood.

yup...but i noe alot is at stake. regaining my confidence. and i must not disappoint those hu are close to me giving me the support. restoring my pride and most importantly the pride of TCHS scouts. it's certainly not the downfall yet...at least not for our batch, not in our time.
so let's work hard bros and the zi qiang bu xi spirit shall be present all the time in our mind haha.

going down to get my stuff at beach road tomolo. feeling kind of guilty cos again i am unable to join the class guys for sentosa outing. i think scouts is deprievin me alot of my time..especially during the holidays. but i guess there will always be another chance.



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