Thoughts.

i had this blog a few days after my grandma passed away. that was in 27th March last year.

my grandfather passed away this month on the 29th. 1 month and 2 days. coincidence or fate?

anyway this time wasnt as sad as last time. maybe every one sorta of got used to it and the mood there was not the very sad kind. and on the 3rd day i had to shou ye. did it with my cousin and my jie fu. didnt sleep the whole night but it was quite okay cos we talked at night and part of my hour was spent talkin on phone =).

this whole funeral thingy makes me feel that the people involved in it seem to be only interested in money. i still dun understand why the monks are collecting such large amounts of money for conductin the rituals at night. 2000 per night can u believe it. actualli if they do it properly and well we shldnt complain la. but there was this monk who kept looking around when he was chanting and he kept looking at his watch la...like rushing off to somewhere lidat. stupid attitude man. didnt remember my grandma's wake had such idiotic monks last time.

and the crematorium...it was like airport lidat...with the names and time indicated on those kind of screen u see in clinics. kind of high tech cos the doors etc were opened and pushed by juz pressing a button. the environment there is quite good too. better for the spirits to rest in peace i guess.

kind of sad to see this kind of things. when a person is dead...what's left are the memories left behind and the ashes. it's sad to see a living body being reduced to just ashes and nothing else. memories will be present..but sooner or later people will start to forget and life still goes on.

cherish your loved ones cos you will never be able to treat them nice again when they pass away.